divorcing old systems
what happens to you when you finally toss out all your old baggage?
I am coming to a few small epiphanies that have the potential to rattle some foundational aspects of how I have been taught to view life. Truthfully, it is an odd time to be confronting whether the lessons of my childhood and youth hold up against cosmic truth against the backdrop of a rapidly changing world. I have wanted old programs and frameworks to stay true. They provided comfort, however illusory, and brought me to this point where I can question whether and how quickly I can toss out my own baggage. Particularly as I discern which bags have been weighing me down, what mental structures I can upgrade, what vantage point I need to change, and what new floor I need to be operating from.
I want to see life as it is. And with that assertion comes the re-orientation of my life from the basement of my mansion up to the attic. “Suddenly” I realise that the cracked vanity in my bedroom that was handed down to me from three generations prior needs a new home - elsewhere.
These small epiphanies have visited me in between my life’s chapters. As one moves into new phases of life, it becomes a great invitation to change one’s mind on frameworks that cannot travel to the next station. The beauty of a divorcement of old systems is that the psyche is quite ripe for the new.
-Having a 9-5 job, a 401k, a steady paycheck that hits your account every other Friday is not security.
-A career cannot establish your identity. You are not the sum total of what you do. What if the incoming government administration does not believe in the importance of your whole industry? I imagine candlestick makers really had to reassess things when electricity became the new norm.
-Self-worth and merit as a human being as defined by tangible production is a very strange Puritanical philosophy we have adopted to punish ourselves.
-Life ought to pause when someone transitions. Modern life does not have a grief culture. In fact, it is frowned upon when loss actually affects one’s ability to be present with life. We are a race of heartbroken people.
-God does not hate me. God is not watching me to punish me for being human and not having the answers to my life.
-Change actually requires total dissolution. The “you” who steps into the next chapter of the path of life cannot be the same person who started the journey. Relevant metaphor: caterpillar becoming butterfly. You become the change you’re seeking.
-Resource and abundance is absolutely more than just money.
During this season of re-orientation, it has been uncomfortable. Some things have been supportive during this navigation:
making flower essence blends that include bee balm (release old stories, beliefs, identities), larkspur (embodied leadership), crab apple (overcoming perfectionism);
somatic work (shaking and bouncing upon waking, jump rope), movement (long walks in the sunlight, gym), sweating (sauna);
breathing into the discomfort, thereby increasing my capacity to be brave;
energy work, specifically clearing out the stories and programming that feels like a broken record, and bringing in more of my radiance and wisdom into my aura;
taking my time, slowing down, paying attention;
talking to my angels.